Hi Elise, 

This is your full length spiritual reading. When I do a full reading I sit in meditation and connect with your energy then I lay out a full spread of tarot cards for you. The cards begin to help me focus in on the messages your deepest self and guides are communicating to you now. Clues will be given that can enhance your spiritual awareness.  The purpose of these readings is to help strengthen and validate your own inner knowing. If any information given seems strange or too far out for you just allow the thought to be considered and then stored for future reference. Some information may make more sense to you in the future after you have relaxed certain deeply held beliefs. The messages given must not be taken as overriding your own best instinct and intuition in any situation. They are only given as suggestions for consideration to stretch your awareness to include expanded possibilities. 

Full Spiritual Reading for Elise Stager

Wednesday September 15, 2004

When I first connected with your energy I saw you surrounded by a lot of activity that tends to distract you. There is much unfocused energy around you that is making it difficult for you to feel connected and tends to make you feel confused or like you are just drifting in a sea of chaos. Above and behind you on your right side there was a very bright focused point of light resembling a guiding star. Although your immediate situation feels unfocused and chaotic you are being guided and watched over by a very strong and stable energy. You are not drifting or as unconnected as you sometimes feel, these are just passing sensations caused by the expansion of your energy body.

Right now you are being guided from within, you can trust this guidance. It is time to stop looking outside of yourself for direction and to turn inward trusting that your deepest self knows where you need to go and what is best for you. It is important that you take some time each day to focus on the deepest center of your being and just be there. It does not have to be a long time, just close your eyes and relax allowing your attention to collapse inward away from the contradicting advice, thoughts and feelings of your outer world and just breathe in stillness. Trust what comes to you when you are focused within.

You have had a vision that was life changing for you. It seemed that all of the sudden you just opened up and you saw everything with new understanding. The universe just poured into you and everything just fell into place. You can not go back to that experience, do not try. That experience only exists when you are fully present in the moment, it can not be attained or earned, it is always right here, right now.  In that moment you knew where you were and where you were going and you felt completely supported and free.  This experience is always available to those who let go and just allow everything to be as it is. It is available to you right now.

You are coming to a time in which you will have to be very alert and observe the workings of your mind very closely.  Be on guard for any indication that you are clinging to the past. If you find that experiences of the past are occupying your mind know that you are missing the wonderful gifts that the present moment has to offer. Attempts to recapture the past will distract you from the experience of now and your experience will seem hollow and unfulfilling. Place no requirements on what, where or when you will experience anything and flow with the currents of your life allowing the total experience to penetrate into your deepest knowing. In this way your next move will be revealed to you.

Unconsciously you are influenced by the feeling that you must compromise your deepest values in order to get along in the world. This is a source of much confusion and dissatisfaction with your present circumstances.  Unconsciously you are not being true to yourself. At times this leads to a hollow feeling of your life lacking meaning and value.  This is an unconscious influence that when brought out into conscious scrutiny will dissolve away.  Just be aware that within your mind lies the broken message that somehow you must compromise in order to survive. When you recognize this influence as an erroneous teaching from a long gone past and allow yourself to accept that it is there, it will fade away and no longer hold any influence over you.

You are able to see beyond the veil of illusion into what is real. This ability can feel like an obstacle because most can not see what you see.  However, this is the very gift that will help you to recognize true guidance when it is offered. You are in the right place at the right time to receive the gifts of Spirit and they are being delivered to you right now. You are being guided to look only within for your guidance and support. You are blessed with a strong and clear guiding light that you can never be separated from because it is always within you.

Where you are going is not knowable, you are on a courageous journey that requires faith.  If only for this reason your guidance can only come from within.  Your path is unique and unspoiled and the journey is where you must be focused. Focus only on where you are now and reach your awareness deep within until you just know where to direct your next step.  This is the only way to assure that you do not go astray. Courage is your best possible response to whatever comes your way. You are creating a life of great beauty and power.

You may find that you are no longer interested in the drama that others are engaged in. You are growing into a higher consciousness that is giving birth to the experience of true unconditional love.  This is the love that flows from within us out into the world.  The relationships that you are interested in are those that are based in true friendliness. You are finding yourself uninterested in relationships based on neediness, control and drama. This is as it should be, your awareness is expanding and you are seeing things as they really are.

Those who are closest to you, your family whether by blood or chosen are now only required to embody patience. They may have to wait for what they want.  Your attention is required within and the fruits of your practice will be shared with all.  Some may resist your chosen course at this time.  Just be aware of the faith that is required of them as you embark on this journey. Reassure them and make it easy for them to patiently await your returned attention. Be aware that those closest to you may surprise you with their understanding and insight.

Your fears are based in a rigid code of good and bad imposed on you from the outside by those who have sought to control you. However well meaning these people were, all that they managed to do was imprison you within your own experience. Be aware of the workings of your mind and learn to identify old messages of judgment and condemnation.  Recognize these thoughts as just part of the drama you have inherited.  They are of the past and can only have the power that you give them.

Sooner or later you will turn in to know the wonders of all that is. It is just a matter of when you decide to take that first step. Eventually the distractions will dissolve and the path will become apparent. The sooner you begin the sooner you will be free. Your guides are powerful and always with you.  Your choice has already been made so listen to the stillness within until the subtle whisperings of your soul are like clearly ringing temple bells calling you home.

You are looking for an Angel or a guide with a name and a separate identity. Your guides are beyond the need of separate identities and names.  They are connected to all that is and can only be found deep within your own awareness. They are not romantic or exciting, they are real and they know that you need to know them as they really are. They present themselves to me as pure energy and want you to know that they will not make up fairy stories to mislead you. They require that you “drop the drama” and pay attention to what you know is real. That is no more than what you require of them.

We Are One,

Tamara

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